捷瑟敏

Now and then I'm scared, when I seem to forget
how sounds become words or even sentences ...
No, I don't speak anymore and what could I say,
since no-one is there and there is nothing to say ...
在我不時恐懼的時候，我似乎忘了聲音是怎麼譯轉成字詞甚至是語句的。
不，我不想再說話了，我能說什麼呢，既然沒有人在那兒，那就沒有什麼好說的。

So, I prefer to lie in darkest silence alone ...
listening to the lack of light, or sound, or someone to talk to,
for something to share ...- but there is no hope and no-one is there.
所以我寧願孤獨地躺在最黑暗的寂靜中，聆聽那沒有光線，沒有聲音之處，
沒有可交談的人，沒有可分享的對象，希望並不存在，而且沒有人在那兒。

No, no, no ...- not one living soul and there is nothing (left) to say,
in darkness I lie all alone by myself,
sleeping most of the time to endure the pain.
不不不，連一個活著的靈魂都沒有，那麼就也沒有什麼好說的。
我孤寂地躺在黑暗中，竭力把時間耗在長眠中，來抵抗難耐的苦痛。

I am not breathing a word, I haven't spoken for weeks
and yet the mistress inside me is (secretly) straining her ears.
But there is no-one, and it seems to me at times that
with every passing hour another word is leaving my mind ...
我隻字未吐，我數週無言，我靈魂中的婦人卻拉長了耳朵傾聽著。
但是沒有人在那兒，對我來說，隨著每個逝去的鐘頭，
一個個的字詞意義也逐漸離開我的心靈。

I am the mistress of loneliness,
my court is deserted but I do not care.
The presence of people is ugly and cold
and something I can neither watch nor bear.
我是孤獨的情婦，我的庭園乾涸枯萎，但我毫不理會。
人群的存在是醜陋而冷酷的，那是我無法觀看或忍受的東西。

So, I prefer to lie in darkness silence alone,
listening to the lack of light, or sound, or someone to talk to,
for something to share ...- but there is no hope and no-one is there.
所以我寧願孤獨地躺在最黑暗的寂靜中，聆聽那沒有光線，沒有聲音之處，
沒有可交談的人，沒有可分享的對象，希望並不存在，而且沒有人在那兒。

No, I don't speak anymore and what should I say,
since no- one is there and there is nothing to say?
All is oppressive, alles ist schwer, there is no-one and NO-ONE IS THERE ...
不，我不要再說了，有什麼好說的呢？
既然沒人在那兒而且無話可說。
整個世界都在壓迫我，一切都如此沉重，
那兒沒有人，沒有人在那兒。

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